Angry?

Anyone can become angry - that is easy.
But to be angry with the right person,
to the right degree,
at the right time,
for the right purpose,
and in the right way - this is not easy.

- Aristotle-

Well, yes, I was angry, a lil bit. And disappointed. Very disappointed. Can't explain much on that. Someone did make me angry (I still don't think ANGRY is the right word).

I am a sensitive person, with soft heart & fragile, even though I may look strong. At least some close friends aware of that. The close friends that I've known for years. I don't realize I can become so down and sad just because of what an old friend have said.

No matter how hurt I am just because of someone, I will forgive. It's not me to punish, but God.

To love someone, is to love their weaknesses. I can't force them to accept me just the way I am, the way I accept them. But then, I still remembered of what a dear friend of mine have said, do not be jealous with your friends, but then, be proud of them.

Yes, I'm hurt. And I'm sorry that I have hurt my friends, several times, I think, without me myself realize that they were hurt. I'm really sorry. And I had hurt the one that I love most, many times before, I hurt you, I was silly and mad and had gone crazy. Now, there are no excuses being angry without any good excuses. I've learned to be angry with the right person, to the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose, and in the right way. Well, damn, it's not easy.

Till then, enjoy this video clip from MUSE-UNINTENDED. Enjoy your weekend!

P/s: B.S.U.R.S.I.C.U.S.U.R

Suka vs Cinta

Antara suka dan cinta - Suka vs Cinta - dua benda tu memang tak sama. Selain dari ejaannya yang tak sama, obviously, S.U.K.A & C.I.N.T.A memang la tak sama. Dah start merapu...

Tapi, ada yang tak faham bahasa. Bila aku kata aku suka, aku suka ja la. Suka, bukan cinta. Lagi tak sama. Kenapa la orang tu boleh perasaan bila aku kata aku suka. C'mon, aku kata aku SUKA, that's all. Suka, bukan melibatkan perasaan batin atau rasa sayang aku. Tapi, budak tu tak faham bahasa. Apa dia ingat dia tu HEBAT sangat? Sampai semua perempuan pun syiok kat dia? Minta maap bebanyak, aku tak tau la dia tu memang jenis yang kuat perasaan atau pun dah tebiat dia macam tu. Alahai, entahla Labu...

Zaman sekarang ni, ada juga lelaki yang perasan ek? Or berperasaan macam tu... Yelah, apa la bezanya antara lelaki dan perempuan zaman sekarang kan?

:Masih lagi terfikirkan jejaka perasan itu:

Dulu & Sekarang

If kawan2 sekalian baca post sebelum yang ni, post tu tunjuk muka aku dulu. Dulu... time aku mula2 masuk keja. Dulu... time aku sentiasa bersemangat turun kerja. Dulu... time happy sesangat (tapi bukan maksud sekarang tak happy, tapi, kureng...). Dulu... time rambut aku panjang mengurai. Dulu... time aku kurus sikit.

Tapi itu dulu... time seronok. Time aku enjoy keja kat sini. Tapi yelah, nak komplen apa guna, at least aku ada keja sekarang ni. Ada gak kawan ku yang lain belum pun dapat kerja. Dulu aku memang suka la sangat. Tapi sekarang dah tak macam dulu lagi.

Sekarang... banyak member yang sekepala dan best semacam dah takda. Sekarang aku sorang ja yang tinggal. Aku ditinggalkan... haru biru aku. Aku dah takda semangat keja, semangat macam aku mula2 masuk sini, *sigh*. Hari-hari ku turun demi anak murid aku. Diaorang la 'buah hati pengarang jantung' aku. Kalau takda diaorang, aku pun tak dapat nak mengajar, kan?

Dulu & Sekarang - terlalu banyak bedanya.

If these pictures could speak...

Peace, kacang peas...

A moment like this...

The Best Birthday, ever...

The Place I rather be...

The things I love most...
Feeding time...

Posers... (miss u guys!)

Being with you...

... and you...

... & Teddy...

...

And most of all...
... being high&dry...

Well, those were the days. Those HAPPY DAYS...

FLU

This FLU is killing me... Unable to take MC due to work and responsibilities. Waaa.. tapi, bak kata a dear friend, aku nak fikirkan tentang orang, tapi siapa yang nak fikirkan aku?

I just hate being sick. For a second time this year, *sigh*.

Nope, I didn't go to clinic yet. I just have Panadol Cold&Flu for the moment.

FLU + fever + headache. *Gosh*

04.04.2008

This date, 6 years ago, he was gone. But yet, he still missed by Nenek, Apak, Mak, Enie, Biki and I, and the rest of family members. He's my favorite. The one that pampered me so much, compared to my other siblings. He's strict but yet have a great sense of humor. I still remembered the last time I saw him...

Mak called me.
Be back as soon as possible.
He cannot make it any longer.
But I said I can't be back.
My final exam have not finished yet.

I flew back the day after I finished my exam.

Mak said he was fighting, holding his breath, just to see you.

And I managed to see him.

God took him away the day after I met him. Just like a dream. 6 years has passed, it's just like yesterday. But I'm grateful that I was able to met him, even for the last time.

Aki, you will always in my heart and we always miss you...

SPA

SPA a.k.a Suruhanjaya Perkhidmatan Awam. I've been to 3 exams. The first exam I failed. But I passed the second exam. And recently, I've been through PTD (Pegawai Tadbir Diplomatik) exam. It was a tough one, and I don't think I can make it. But then, I pass! Maybe it's just my luck cos I don't really prepared, especially on the essays part. But then, I did it! I did! Even I don't really put on high hope to go tru all the stages (exam, assessment & interview). Well, what comes around goes around, plus hard work and effort.

And there will be another exam for SPA this coming Saturday. Another exam, sigh! I just can't understand why there must be another exam, since that I've passed the second exam. Hmmm... still thinking whether I should go or not and take another leave. For information, I've been blacklisted by my boss just because I've attended the PTD exam last February. I just don't get it. Boss... sampai bila kita harus begini?

Countdown-3 days to go for the exam.